Sunday, April 17, 2011

doa memohon pertolongan~

Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (Mereka berdoa): “Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya. Beri ma’aflah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami, maka tolonglah kami terhadap kaum yang kafir.”
(QS. Al Baqarah, 2 : 286)


رَبَّنَا ءَاتِنَا مِنْ لَدُنْكَ رَحْمَةً وَهَيِّئْ لَنَا مِنْ أَمْرِنَا رَشَدًا

Robbanaa aatinaa minladunka rohmataw wahayya lanaa min amrinaa rosyada

“Wahai Tuhan kami berikanlah rahmat kepada kami dari sisi-Mu dan sempurnakanlah bagi kami petunjuk yang lurus dalam urusan kami (ini)”. (Q.S. Al-kahfi : 10)

doa rasullullah~

Al-Imam Ahmad meriwayatkan: Semasa peperangan Uhud, tatkala orang2 Musyrikin telah pergi, Rasulullah saw bersabda: "Berbarislah, kerana aku hendak memanjatkan pujian kepada Tuhanku Yang Maha Agung". Kemudian para sahabat pun membuat barisan di belakangnya, lantas Rasulullah saw berdoa:

"Ya Allah segala pujian milikMu. Ya Allah tidak ada yang dapat menggenggam apa yang Engkau hamparkan dan tidak ada yang dapat menghamparkan apa yang Engkau genggamkan. Tidak ada yg dapat memberi petunjuk kepada orang yang Engkau sesatkan dan tidak ada yang dapat menyesatka orang yg Engkau berikan hidayah. Tidak ada yg dapat memberi barang yang Engkau halang dan tidak ada yg dapat menahan barang yg Engkau beri. Tidak ada yg dapat mendekatkan apa yg Engkau jauhkan dan tidak ada yg dapat menjauhkan apa yg Engkau dekatkan. Ya Allah, hamparkanlah kepda kami keberkatan-keberkatan Mu, kasih sayang, anugerah dan rezekiMu.

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku bermohon kepadaMu nikmat yg kekal abadi, yg tidak berubah dan hilang. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku bermohon kepadaMu pertolongan pada hari kesusahan dan keamanan pada hari ketakutan. Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku berlindung dengan Mu dari keburukan yang Engkau takdirkan kepada kami serta keburukan yg Engkau tahan daripada kami. Ya Allah, timbulkanlah rasa cinta kami kepada iman serta hiasilah ia dalam hati kami, dan timbulkanlah rasa benci kami kepada kekufuran, kefasikan dan penderhakaan serta jadikanlah kami dari kalangan yg mendapat bimbingan. Ya Allah, matikanlah kami sebagai orang Islam dan hidupkanlah kami sebagai orang Islam serta temukanlah kami dengan orang2 yg soleh tanpa merasa hina dan terfitnah. Ya Allah, perangilah orang2 kafir yang mendustai rasul-rasulMu serta menghalang manusia dari jalanMu. Jadikanlah hukuman dan seksaanMu terhadap mereka. Ya Allah, perangilah orang-orang kafir yang mereka pernah diberikan al-kitab. Engkaulah Tuhan yang sebenar."

(riwayat Bukhari)

dipetik dari Sirah Nabawiyyah
(Safiyyu al Rahman al Mubarakfuri)
wallahua'lam.....

selamatkan hatiku....~

Tuhan! Robek-robekkanlah hatiku dengan takutkan Mu. Pecah-pecahkanlah hatiku dengan kehebatan Mu. Hancur luluhkanlah hatiku dengan Jabbar dan Qahhar Mu. Hiris-hiriskanlah hatiku dengan Rahman dan Rahim Mu. Kecut dan reput-reputkanlah hatiku dengan Qudrat dan Iradah Mu. Agar jangan manusia dan kuasa yang lain merobek-robek hatiku. Supaya kebesaran manusia tidak pecahkan hatiku. Jangan sampai zalim dan kezaliman manusia menghiris hatiku. Aku berlindung denganMu daripada makhluk yang merosakkan hatiku. Juga aku berlindung dengan Mu jangan sampai dunia dan nikmat merosakkan hatiku Tuhan! Selamatkanlah hatiku daripada dirosakkan oleh pujian. Peliharalah hatiku daripada nikmat dunia dan keindahan. Tuhan, apalah ertinya aku cintakan syurgaMu padahal hatiku tidak mencintaiMu. Apalah ertinya aku takut akan nerakaMu sedangkan hatiku tidak takut dengan Mu. Tuhan, hidayahMu yang ku pinta, TaufiqMu yang ku mahu. Selamatkanlah aku tuhan... Peliharalah aku.. Pimpinlah aku kejalan keselamatan. Engkau adalah tuhanku, pelindungku, Amin ya rabbal ’alamin...

Thursday, March 24, 2011

nasihat mummy...

Barangsiapa merasa cukup dengan apa yang telah diberikan Allah, maka dia kaya.


Barangsiapa suka memandang harta orang lain, dia akan mati miskin.

Barangsiapa tidak redha (tidak rela) dengan apa yang telah diberikan Allah kepadanya, maka dia telah menentang keputusanNya (qadha’Nya)

Barangsiapa memandang remeh kesalahannya, maka dia akan memandang besar kesalahan orang lain.

Barangsiapa memandang besar kesalahannya, maka dia akan memandang remeh kesalahan orang lain.

Barangsiapa membuka aib orang lain, maka aib keturunannya akan tersingkap.

Barangsiapa menggali lubang untuk mencelakakan saudaranya, maka dia sendiri akan terjerumus ke dalamnya.

Barangsiapa bergaul dengan ulama, maka dia akan dimuliakan.

Barangsiapa memasuki tempat-tempat biasa dikunjungi orang-orang bodoh, maka 
dia akan direndahkan.

Dan barangsiapa memasuki tempat-tempat kemaksiatan, maka dia akan dituduh berbuat maksiat.

meratap sedih....

Tanpa kesedihan kita tidak akan mengenal erti kebahagiaan....

Justeru itu, kesedihan akan membuat kita bangkit untuk meraih kebahagiaan.


Apabila kita dilanda kesedihan, berhentilah dari melayani perasaan dan fikiran jika kita ingin terlepas dari belenggu penderitaan hidup.

Bersikap lemah dan bersedih hati apabila mendapat dugaan dari Allah bukanlah ciri orang-orang yang diangkat darjatnya oleh Allah.

Sibukkanlah diri dalam ibadah, mudah-mudahan ianya akan menjadi ubat yang mujarab bagi seseorang yang ingin bangkit dari kesedihan yang berpanjangan.

Terlalu lama tenggelam dalam kesedihan akan menambah penderitaan dan memberi peluang kepada syaitan untuk datang dengan bisikan-bisikan mendayu.

titik penyesalan~

Sendiri di satu pagi memandang cerahnya hari dengan udara yang sejuk. Membuatku selalu berfikir, mengapa seindah ini dunia yang Engkau ciptakan bagi kami. Membuatku selalu bertanya, apa yang Engkau harapkan ketika mencipta aku dan semua keindahan ini. Satu hal yang sangat tidak kupahami tetapi menjadikanku dengan tulusnya menyatakan bahwa ternyata Engkau sangat mencintaiku.
Suatu hal yang indah yang telah kuperoleh dari Mu. Tetapi apa balasku, aku bahkan lalai dengan apa yang Engkau tugaskan padaku. Lalai saja tidak cukup, bahkan aku melakukan hal hal yang Engkau larang melalui kitab dan rasul Mu.
Malu sekali diriku ketika melakukan kesalahan, kemudian bersimpuh di malam Mu tetapi keesokan harinya aku melakukan kesalahan yang sama. Teramat sangat malu diriku untuk kembali meminta maaf Mu.
Ya Rabb berilah aku sedikit kekuatan untuk menangkal godaan makhluk Mu yang selalu mengajakku ke dalam kebathilan. Bantulah aku agar bisa bersanding dengan umat umat Rasul Mu di surga yang telah Engkau sediakan untuk beliau. Tambahkanlah rasa cinta ku kepada Mu ya Rabb agar aku dapat selalu melakukan apa pun yang Engkau perintahkan kepadaku. Agar aku senantiasa beribadah karena kecintaanku kepada Mu.
Ya ALLAH...sesungguhnya Engkaulah Yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Mengasihani~ 

Sunday, February 13, 2011

CHILDISH SMALL GIRL!!!

Talking about my life has always been like stepping on glass, I was afraid if I did it, the glass would break in the early morning hours of December 28th, 1989, a young infant peacefully joined a new world. Nor Azizah Abdullah was born in Baling Hospital, at the mean time she was living in the city of Kedah. I lived a very usual life like most people. I have been through more hard times, then good times. I will tell you about all the good things that had happened and all the bad things that had happened, and also what I want to happen in the near future. 

I lived in Kedah with my mom, dad, brothers and sister. Being the youngest you always tend to get picked on but it was always fun just spending time with them all. I lived in Kedah  for the 22 years of my life. When I was born, my brother was five-years-old and hid under the table from me. Abu Bakar Zaki is a sweet boy and he would do anything for me, but like all brothers and sisters we fight like cats and dogs. Sometimes when no one was around, my brother would come up to me and bite my toes for no reason....ahahaha.... its too funny right? I still love him but only because he is my brother.

I started school when I was six-years-old. I went to kindergarten through a year and while I was there, I won an award for perfect attendance. I started school, met some new friends and even started to play netball. Being as young as I was I didn’t know how to get through it, but I knew it had to be done. It is our life. I still moved on it’s a hard thing to do but its something that just needs to get done. 

I started high school at Baling. Where I need to struggle for  my dreams. I never thought I would meet someone in high school and want to be with him for the rest of my life, but it happened. My first love. We have been with each other for almost two years and its been wonderful. The beautiful relationship...opsss..my mom always told me its ‘cinta monyet la baby’...huhuhuhu.... He taught me everything. About life and study. I am really admiring him. But its not remain to be good part in my life. We had broke up. He went far away from my life. He become very brilliant and successful boy. Me??? I got very bad result in my spm examination. I become a looser. Why??? Because I am frustrating with my relationship between me and him. It is my fault...my nanny always said ‘gatai merla’.....ahahaha....yes, I am!!!!

Then I further my study at Malacca. I was taking Diploma in Law. Its trough 3 years. Finally,  the day I waited for my whole life had came. Graduation day was something I will always look back on something I worked hard on for twenty years of my life. After graduation I guess you can say I became an adult. It was time to start doing things on my own. Very difficult part in my life.
It is true what they say: “Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterward”. This saying has been more evident in my life in the last 22 years.

Opppss..... I forgot something. About my love story. Too many times get hurt after my first love, but its doesn’t gave me the end of my love story. I had fall in love with a guy that old five years than me. Our relationship only stand around two years. Its really like ‘kepala dihempab batu yang besar.....oooouuuucchhhh!!!! sakitnya’.. he get married with the other girl. In other word, ‘curang!!!!’... be cool, okay...yeah, maybe we are not meant to be together...... I???? Crying, crying and crying..... childish small girl!!!

After a year I found another boy. He make my heart flourish back after one year I don’t have any boyfriend in my life. I mean special boyfriend. Its 18th of January 2010, at early in the morning. My phone was ringing. I’m yours..... I mean the phone ringtone... We were having nice conversation. He was a caring and gentle boy that I ever met. Our friendship go on smoothly. I had met his parents, his family.... at his sister’s wedding.  And its become most beautiful when I become his sister brides-maid. Really sweet moment.... and its become sweetest when he gave me a rose in front of his family..... I want to cry...really appreciate him.... I love him damn much... really.....

Life to me means friends and family who you can trust and who trusts you. I am pretty much on the happy side of life, but like all teens I do I have my "days of." That means I do have some sad days or depressed days. I have a few friends here that sort of look out for me and when I am having a bad day, I have someone here to talk to. I make my days go by thinking of either the next hour or what I will do when I get home or on the weekend. I'm not seeing anyone now but when I did have a boyfriend, our favourite places to go were the movies and out to bowling or Mc Donald’s ....yeah, his favourite place... its make me thinking of Big Mac...yummmmmyyy... Sometimes we went to the padi field...with his prelude, just once. We were together and I really hope it was forever.... until the end of my life.... is it true??? ..... L

“We don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are…”

After I hit rock bottom, I realized I couldn’t afford to make any more mistakes so I decided to give my life back to God, Allah s.w.t..

The way you see your life, shapes your life because how you define life determines
your destiny…”

“Trusting God completely means having faith that He knows what is best for your life”

What my mom always said to me??? We have no rights to ask when sorrow comes, “why did this happen to me?” Unless we ask the same question for every moment of happiness that comes our way. thanks mummy...


Finally, with all the bad things that happened in the past there was things that you just can get over but you have to move on about. Gone in my life I feel have only made me be a stronger person in life, I feel I can almost go through anything now. The present that I am in now or next, I could never be any happier with, to have a great boy, maybe...lets time determine it, a great family, and able to get a good education all at one time is something remarkable to do. My future is just some goals that I make I hope to accomplish them. My goal is to finish study and get married, oppsssss.... no, no, get job first....hehehehe... have some kids settle down with a job that I will earn myself. Then once I get all settled I will be back to university somewhere to future my study to another step. Yes!!! The glass will never break, cause I am strong. Please have faith on ALLAH, that I will success in my life no matter what happen...... 

INSYAALLAH......BARAKALLAHUALAIKUM~~~ J